Wednesday, March 31, 2004

Eyes On Me
Faye Wong
(Final Fantasy 8)

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

* Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

[Repeat *]

this week is sick. got ard 8 test squeezed into this week. think i'm gonna die. i'm mentally,spiritually and physically tired now. at least today can take a breather because there is no test tomorrow. Whew.

Actually, this week i'll not have much activity due to the large amount of test. all i have will be the cycling trip from bishan to pierce and back on Sat. but hopefully next week i can relax a bit. going to ian's church on Good Friday to see Jesus and His disciples skate and sing song[don't ask why, becoz i'm not quite sure that sounds right either].

ok, apologizes for a short entry today. just finished my english paper1 mock exam so i think i've drained off all my crapping essence. see you guys ard. Cheers.



Monday, March 29, 2004

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

[bridge:]
You are the air that I breath.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
Hear my confession





yes.. now i am staff sergent benjamin er. whahaha.. song bo =)

haven't blogged in a long time. so here is what happened on the last few days of mine absence. friday, ian brought his cam again, so we took some pics. it was damn boring, because everything is like a repeat of thursday. so all the pics turned out like crap. all the photo i show that fucking lan jiao bin. then after that hanged around in school till erm.. 4.30 or 5? in a few words = it was boring.

then saturday came, wow. that was fun. halfway through the CM(corp meeting). we were suddenly told that now there will be a parade. then all stun, dunno what is going on. ended up all of the sec3 and 4 level got promoted to the next rank. it was damn song. after the CM, i was planning to go down to ZhongHua carnival since Wei Xuan also wanna go. But ended up the SHM(section head meeting) ended at 5+ and the carnival ends at 4. And after that, had another meeting to discuss training camp details. Dragged until 7.15pm. Mother called halfway through and kbkb. Lolx, what to do? I'm a mother's boy =)

Then on Sunday, another boring day. Nick jio a few of us to go for Cedar Band Performance at Mac. Reservoir. But ended up nvr go. Stay at home and mug. Haiz, damn sian, will be having 8 tests this week. Two on everyday except thursday. Siao liao la. Another thing happened, I dreamed of her the other night. For some reason everything well-ed up again like it just happened yesterday. Have to learn to forget ba.. =/

Ok, this should be all. Oh, by the way. Go listen to "FIR - Lydia". It's a good chinese song

God Bless.



Thursday, March 25, 2004

no mood to blog today. only thing i got to say is that i think my oral is screwed up. dammit.



Wednesday, March 24, 2004

Just a little, hey, let me be just a little closer to you
The truth is, I always want to be like this right here
Just a little, hey, let me see just a little more of your dreams
An end will never come to our world

Holding me tight, our time together pauses
My memories increase
Show me a dream like this

Just a little more, hey, hold me just a little bit more
Until we drift into a deep sleep
Just a little more, hey, make our kiss last just a little bit more
Until my body melts

When I tear of the pages of the calendar, our time together pauses
My memories increase
Show me a dream like this

Just a little, hey, shine on me just a little
Don't disappear like a shooting star
Or like a fleeting dream





もう少し
作詞・作曲：玉城千春


もう少し ねえ もう少し あなたの側にいさせてよ
本当はずっとここにこうしていたいから
もう少し ねぇ もう少し あなたの夢を見させてよ
終わりのこない二人の世界を

強く抱きしめて 二人の時間 とぎれとぎれ
思い出ばかりが 増えて
このまま夢を見させて

あと少し ねぇ あと少し 私を抱きしめていて
いつのまにか 深い眠りに入るまで
あと少し ねぇ あと少し 長いキスをしよう
体が溶けてしまうまで

カレンダーめくるたび 二人の時間 とぎれとぎれ
思い出ばかりが 増えて
このまま夢を見させて

もう少し ねぇ もう少し 私を照らしていて
流れ星のように消えないでね
はかない夢のように






just came back from school. entire body seems to have gone haywire. aching like crazy. my right arm feels un-hinged. today had english oral exam. 4SA sueh sueh ganna dora lee the pontianak. walan. damn horrijible. she will drill on every single one of your mistakes till the point of you suffering from mental breakdown. and i mean, just look at her face, do you think i got anything to talk about to someone that looks like that.[think something similar to medusa] the conversation topic is about what job do you want to do after the O's and before going into jc//poly. ended up i talked some crap about being a counsellor. and then the first question came, give me a case study. stone sia. so i just came up with some story to tide over.

hopefully i didn't do too badly. if not i'm royally screw-ed.

yesterday took class photo. i think the fun shot sucked. we like some bunch of retard there with tie on head like rambo and shirts unbuttoned. i think i'll shudder when i see this picture in years to come. shudder* the only nice part was that someone went to pull miss tan hair. hopefully it will come out in the picture........



Tuesday, March 23, 2004

Lately, i've had the strangest feeling
With no vivid reason here to find
But yet the thought of losing you's been hangin'
Around my mind
K-ci sing it
Far more frequently you're wearing perfume
With, you say, no special place to go
But when i ask will you be coming back soon
You don't know, never know

Oh,i'm a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what i really feel
My eyes won't let me hide
'cause they always, start to cry
Cry
'cause this time could mean goodbye

Lately i've been staring in the mirror
Very slowly picking me apart
Said, i'm trying to tell myself i have no reason
With your heart

Now, just the other night while you were sleeping
I vaguely heard you whisper someone's name
But when i ask you of the thoughts you're keeping
You just say nothings changed
Ohhh, i'm a man of many wishes
I hope my premonition misses
But what i really feel
My eyes won't let me hide
'cause they always start to cry
'cause this time could mean goodbye



Monday, March 22, 2004

changed.
Stevie Wonder - Lately





Liang Jing Ru - Ting Bu Dao
enjoy..





just reach home after school today. having a severe case of firstdayofschoolblues. and to add to that i'll be having remedial everyday from now to october. out goes my life and in comes mindless mugging. sigh* either way, no pain no gain right?

last saturday went for CIP, it was a flag day for the St. Luke's home of the elderly. asking for donations from the public to fund the ah-ma's porridge and air con rooms. Spend two dollars going round orchard area by mrt and another three on food. end up how much did i collect? five dollars. i mean.. it was like morning in orchard and to add to that we have at least 200-250 students from Cedar, SCGS, and Saint Andrew combing the area and predating on helpless innocent passer-by's. So how much do you expect to collect? Then the auntie volunteer scold me for not collecting enough. And another auntie scold me for only getting five dollars and saying that her 300ml mineral water cost her one buck. i mean, one bottle onli cost 70cents? and her bought it in bulk somemore. and add to that, it was most prob sponsored. so why is she whining?even though i spend one hour in citylink playing "are you hot?" and window shopping but... erm.. nvm.. forget i said that.

after that went for lunch with friends and lawrence siao. call me sua1 gu1[mountain turtle] if you want but i seriously think Marche is not worth its price. parents paying is fine with me but i dun think i would spend 15-20 dollars per meal on a regular basis. so we just ended up eating//sitting there for erm.. 3/2 hours?

oh ya.. another weird thing happened during flag day. A woman approached us saying she wants to give us woman's body perfume. and when we asked why she is giving us woman perfume. she was like " woman, wo-man, wild man mah" oO and end up we actually have to pay a "heavy subsidised" rate for it [ 12.50 per bottle] she claim that it is made of flower essence and that it will be in the market next month at the price of 120 per bottle. we declined[or in another words we fucking said no way] and she stalked off to a pair of scgs girls. so we just waved out hands and shook our heads to the girls before we left. we did this everytime we saw the woman trying to sell her stuff. i mean, i dun know whether she is telling the truth but i'm incline to believe she is bogus[or in another words, she's talking shit through her mouth].

and on sunday, i slept and studied.



Friday, March 19, 2004

can't believe i'm actually reverting back to writing proper english. last time i write like that one. and now i'm writing like this.. LoLx. weird. must be because i just woke up or something. so ask the old people will say. my tian[sky] yen[eye] has opened. and as we speak a people is having an epic struggle with her brother over the control of "THE KEYBOARD".. how i wish for some siblings =/ things can get really boring without some.

feeling damn bored now. woke up for a while and too lazy to actually start on my studying. grandmother watching the "golden age" show on channel 8. the old people singing is driving me crazy. i know about filial peity and stuff but i'm going to lose control in a while so hopefully i don't smash too many things. omg.. that guy is opening his mouth so big that a lion could jump in. damn it makes me sick.

i think i've got a piece of fish bone in my throat. i'm prone to fish-bone-in-da-throat and it happened 3 times before. not the big kind but the small ones that are slightly thicker than hair. not enough to kill but enough to irritant. and the guy is still opening his mouth like no tomorrow. i can't take it anymore. see you people. God Bless.





ok.. just changed away my old song. power music hosting server may be down for a few more days so i decided to change to another source and somewhat lighten the monotony[just woke up, so feeling a bit wen2 chou2 chou2]. Either way.. enjoy the music brought to you by S.H.E. titled "mo2 li4'. by the way.. thanks for your help in introducing me to this webby and helping me set it up.[you know who you are.. =) ]





my dio3-dua3 sensor is getting more accurate by the day. called jieying and she say that afternoon got tuition, then cannot go out sudy liao.. -_-" but nvm. she dua me until become habit liao[hor?] so later sharleen and i went downstairs study[for those of you who know sharLYN the bitch, this is another sharleen.]

went for a haircut after that. kns. I've cut my hair for 16 years, and this is the first time the barber was so enthu that my ear he also wan to cut. and to add to that, they gave me a free hairwash, total amount of washing in the saloon:2. I mean, thanks, but no thanks. and to sum everything up, the dinner i had sucks.

yesterday was fullashit. =/



Thursday, March 18, 2004

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me, not that easily.

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me, far too easily.





just reach my grandmother's place. then realise that i got nothing better to do so i started blogging. currently playing game and waiting for the someone to wake up. Hopefully at ten she will call...[yes, i remember, not like someone] and not pang4 my aeroplane. maybe i'll go search for the final fantasy song compilation CD later..

Yes.. today i'm finally going to cut hair. hopefully the auntie will let me cut and put the bill in debt first so my mother can pay the next time she comes.

fine.. apparently i got nothing to write now. i mean. it's early in the morning and i already wrote some stuff yesterday evening. so cannot blame me. i'll try to update again later when i am in a clearer state of mind. see you guys.



Wednesday, March 17, 2004

yes finally~! the music is back online.





haiz.. already told people not to ka jiao me liao. yet still got people come into my line of fire. first is my uncle. just come back from tuition there kb. kns. onli shout back nia he take newspaper whack me. wan to whack use something more solid la... newspaper whack liao no kick. i not happy, he also will not happy. wad for lor.. then next one that ganna is sam. sorry la.. just that you hit a raw spot that i'll rather not be spoken about. what you said just managed to bring back everything i'm trying to forget. didn't mean to do what i did. regret sia. haiz. k.. that should be it ba.. see u peeps. God Bless.

Oh ya.. apparently, the site that host my music is down.. so you cannot hear any music..





"Save your tears, 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turned back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart!

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words, 1000 confessions
Will cradle you, making all of the pain
You feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever!





morning.. didn't sleep well yesterday night. woke up at around 4am and started turning around. mind started reeling on and thought about a lot of stuff. only managed to sleep when the sky started turning a lighter shade of blue. so today please don't come ka jiao me. later i kbkb offend people. anyone knows how to cheer me up? not feeling very good today. maybe because of tuition again later. maybe because of lack of sleep. maybe because of pms[oO].

wtf. someone just told me that tomorrow got SHM. kns. my plan of slacking this morning is spoiled. time to get my butt moving and go do stuff liao. haiz.. -_-"

why do people get identity crisis? so many people around me is suffering. dun think i'm spared. why do human lose sight of what we need to do? why do we magnify our problems to such an extent that the suffering is almost unbearable. friends, think of it as tests in our lifes and press on ba. no use hiding in one corner and sulking about how life sucks.






Tuesday, March 16, 2004

yawn.. just woke up. feeling like some matchmaker sia. trying to help my junior know some girl from somewhere[must keep it vague]. if not later the girl know then feel uncomfortable. all we can do for you is intro la.. the rest is up to you[you know who you are] haiz.. think i'm gonna hibernate through the holidays. weather is so nice. so cooling. -_-

watching the channel U show deity show. lameness. all the guys are like hen-pecked.. hopefully i'll not grow up to be like such. then something happen at corps again. have to find solutions or we will be in deep shit. haiz.. just have to pull up balls and go on ba.. God Bless.





Background Music : 1000words - Yuna(FFX-2)





Here i am making another attempt at creating[and sustaining] a blog. Add-ons soon to come: tagboard and links to more people. But for now, be patient k?

Either way, today was quite boring, went for maths tuition and took the headache i got from there to J8 for a walk. Wanted to buy a waist pouch but couldn't find any nice ones. Maybe i'll go find one and some tees in heerens on Thurday ba.. Teacher siao one, today tuition, tomorrow tuition again. Crazy Shaun and David, choose this type of time, onli i dun wanna say nia. But what to do, no choice, they no time. Haiz.

Yesterday went to Body World[at last] with my friend's church, quite nice. Apparently i learnt a lot of stuff from there and it wasn't as disturbing as some people said. They volunteerily donate their body so i volunteerily see lor. The only part that bugs me are the baby embryos and the babies that are deformed. Got really sick there until i saw the sign saying that those aren't bodies[means they are fake].

Either way, i think i better get to doing my tuition homework soon. If not i'm gonna die.

Oh ya, just one more thing to write. Even though you people didn't win the champion, dun let it bother you for too long. Move on bro's. I'm rooting for ya.





Hi.. My first post.. Enjoy..